Some time ago I got a fellowship activity near here ~ and it's just a bit special for me that I can refresh what I have passed in the past which brought me here. And I sometimes feel my life is very flat (but interesting =D) but actually there's many things make it wonderful, either in good times or bad times.
In short, I shared about how I can get here, to tertiary education. I'm always thinking it's full of lucks. It's like a process and if that process is cut down into many events happened sequentially, and if every events have many possible choices I would go through, then at that time, I passed every events with the best possible choices. So if the events are multiple choices questions, then I score everything perfectly. If there is only one wrong answer, then the result will be much different. That's how I call it full of lucks.
Right after graduating from junior high school I had no choices but followed my parents advice to take an extra course of A' level for preparing to get into the university I may choose. Shortly, I had an intense training for full 3 years, both A' level specially Maths even with more than one teachers, plus a number of experience I got from a small Maths competition in schools with my friends. So I practiced that at both school and home and my life looks like full of Maths for that 3 years and in addition, I never myself gave a break for an English extra course. So Maths and English were to run concurrently and continuously.
Well now after the intro, in the end of semester 5 (last 2 sem) in my senior high I applied to the university. One for it, one specially for scholarship, and one for other university. And as I feared to happen, because of my just-fine grades during senior high I was rejected by the 2 but still waiting for the former one. The bad thing was that the rejection was a rejection for me to join the test. Even I could not join the test. That's fine because I knew the reason, already very clear, no doubt at all, because of my grades. Then comes the result for the former one. But wait these are the first lucks.
Briefly, I am in a small town so for years the entrance test was always conducted outside, so we have to compete with other students from other cities even to join the test. Because of any understandable reason ~ cause it'll be too long the test was conducted in my town (I thought it's city =p ). And this absolutely will be helpful so much for me that I had a bad score. How luck it is that even the bacth after me did not get that opportunity, which is, they will surely decreased the requirements because they could accept more people for having test. I never thought that even I could not take this advantage, I wasn't accepted even for test. I want to say but don't know to whom, why I cannot even try my best first to know that this is really not my fate, not to be my future, not my capabilities, not this not that. I can do nothing but just to support my friends. Only 6 persons including me not approved.
A few days after my instructor kindly recommended me back to the university for the hope of joining the test. After a full of hope waiting for it it's already a luck for me for having approved, together with one friend, even my cousin with grades much much greater than me didn't, while I'm still wondering till now what's the mysteries behind it.
Quickly to the entrance test, again by luck but for this time I was very sure I put whole my efforts in it such that I could do every questions without any one doubt. Although no one knows the score but I could put the lowest boundary of it. After the English test, then comes the Physics test. With that not too difficult question, I never imagined that I could not even score any 1 mark in it. I'm till now half sure that I got zero mark or may be a small bit higher. I thought myself if I were them, how come I approved a student into an engineering course with zero mark of its Physics although good mark in Maths. During the waiting-for-result period I did not blame myself and satisfied with all happen so far but never imagined that extremely bad Physics test. Even I finally find one other kind of scholarship but I could not apply because of its technical requirement.
And as you know -but no one knows the real reason- I was accepted. Even with no scholarship but it's my first choice course. I believe one of the main reason was the first choice of the courses. Without exaggerated, if the first choice was not Computer Science ~ an engineering course but no Physics in it~ then I had not been here right now, typing a blog with a full of spirit to know what's going on tomorrow in my class. I remembered months before I joined an IQ test but the result was so strange for me and didn't help so much for me in choosing courses. And till the end I had to make a final decision. That's around 0320 pm on my bed in my room, in front of a paper written 7 courses I had to cut down to 5 and sort it 1st to 5th. With a head full of uncertainties the arrangement was such that the 1st course is Computer Science and other 4 are 'real' engineering courses. From young till now I still want Architecture but if the university had that course I'm not sure the final result will be the same.
The last thing was about application system. In my batch they offered 3 choices whether we woud like to apply for scholarship only, or scholarship but loan is fine, or full tuition is fine. We suggested it's three levels - high to down- the mark we have to get, if we chose the first one then we had to ensure that we had an excellent mark. I chose the middle one and I would not think they will approve me if I chose the first one and as the result, I got no scholarship but loan, that's another luck.
During first year here and looked back to the past, compared to the present, looked to my other friends around the world, I'm so granted by GOD for having a course I enjoyed so much with a lot of nice friends I hoped I got and I did and a room I enjoyed as well, I thanks Him so much for what he arranged for me. The more I enjoy my life here the more blessed I think He gave me. And because of this I never complained anythings - to myself or Him or parents - when I got any difficulties. I'm already given such a nice set and I just thought what I should do tomorrow to solve every problems and try not to stress myself, because this is a gift from Him.
About 5-10 minutes saying about this, one of friends responded that I'm looking down much to myself. I agree with him and will have to change that nature but for this journey I will still -and always- regard it as a road full of lucks because I know everything happens at that time would not come without lucks and blessings from Him.
In short, I shared about how I can get here, to tertiary education. I'm always thinking it's full of lucks. It's like a process and if that process is cut down into many events happened sequentially, and if every events have many possible choices I would go through, then at that time, I passed every events with the best possible choices. So if the events are multiple choices questions, then I score everything perfectly. If there is only one wrong answer, then the result will be much different. That's how I call it full of lucks.
Right after graduating from junior high school I had no choices but followed my parents advice to take an extra course of A' level for preparing to get into the university I may choose. Shortly, I had an intense training for full 3 years, both A' level specially Maths even with more than one teachers, plus a number of experience I got from a small Maths competition in schools with my friends. So I practiced that at both school and home and my life looks like full of Maths for that 3 years and in addition, I never myself gave a break for an English extra course. So Maths and English were to run concurrently and continuously.
Well now after the intro, in the end of semester 5 (last 2 sem) in my senior high I applied to the university. One for it, one specially for scholarship, and one for other university. And as I feared to happen, because of my just-fine grades during senior high I was rejected by the 2 but still waiting for the former one. The bad thing was that the rejection was a rejection for me to join the test. Even I could not join the test. That's fine because I knew the reason, already very clear, no doubt at all, because of my grades. Then comes the result for the former one. But wait these are the first lucks.
Briefly, I am in a small town so for years the entrance test was always conducted outside, so we have to compete with other students from other cities even to join the test. Because of any understandable reason ~ cause it'll be too long the test was conducted in my town (I thought it's city =p ). And this absolutely will be helpful so much for me that I had a bad score. How luck it is that even the bacth after me did not get that opportunity, which is, they will surely decreased the requirements because they could accept more people for having test. I never thought that even I could not take this advantage, I wasn't accepted even for test. I want to say but don't know to whom, why I cannot even try my best first to know that this is really not my fate, not to be my future, not my capabilities, not this not that. I can do nothing but just to support my friends. Only 6 persons including me not approved.
A few days after my instructor kindly recommended me back to the university for the hope of joining the test. After a full of hope waiting for it it's already a luck for me for having approved, together with one friend, even my cousin with grades much much greater than me didn't, while I'm still wondering till now what's the mysteries behind it.
Quickly to the entrance test, again by luck but for this time I was very sure I put whole my efforts in it such that I could do every questions without any one doubt. Although no one knows the score but I could put the lowest boundary of it. After the English test, then comes the Physics test. With that not too difficult question, I never imagined that I could not even score any 1 mark in it. I'm till now half sure that I got zero mark or may be a small bit higher. I thought myself if I were them, how come I approved a student into an engineering course with zero mark of its Physics although good mark in Maths. During the waiting-for-result period I did not blame myself and satisfied with all happen so far but never imagined that extremely bad Physics test. Even I finally find one other kind of scholarship but I could not apply because of its technical requirement.
And as you know -but no one knows the real reason- I was accepted. Even with no scholarship but it's my first choice course. I believe one of the main reason was the first choice of the courses. Without exaggerated, if the first choice was not Computer Science ~ an engineering course but no Physics in it~ then I had not been here right now, typing a blog with a full of spirit to know what's going on tomorrow in my class. I remembered months before I joined an IQ test but the result was so strange for me and didn't help so much for me in choosing courses. And till the end I had to make a final decision. That's around 0320 pm on my bed in my room, in front of a paper written 7 courses I had to cut down to 5 and sort it 1st to 5th. With a head full of uncertainties the arrangement was such that the 1st course is Computer Science and other 4 are 'real' engineering courses. From young till now I still want Architecture but if the university had that course I'm not sure the final result will be the same.
The last thing was about application system. In my batch they offered 3 choices whether we woud like to apply for scholarship only, or scholarship but loan is fine, or full tuition is fine. We suggested it's three levels - high to down- the mark we have to get, if we chose the first one then we had to ensure that we had an excellent mark. I chose the middle one and I would not think they will approve me if I chose the first one and as the result, I got no scholarship but loan, that's another luck.
During first year here and looked back to the past, compared to the present, looked to my other friends around the world, I'm so granted by GOD for having a course I enjoyed so much with a lot of nice friends I hoped I got and I did and a room I enjoyed as well, I thanks Him so much for what he arranged for me. The more I enjoy my life here the more blessed I think He gave me. And because of this I never complained anythings - to myself or Him or parents - when I got any difficulties. I'm already given such a nice set and I just thought what I should do tomorrow to solve every problems and try not to stress myself, because this is a gift from Him.
About 5-10 minutes saying about this, one of friends responded that I'm looking down much to myself. I agree with him and will have to change that nature but for this journey I will still -and always- regard it as a road full of lucks because I know everything happens at that time would not come without lucks and blessings from Him.
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